couple of days ago and out of the clear blue sky Sophia informed me that "Boys don't marry Aunts." I tried to reason with her that Uncle Jens married Aunt Abbey but she informed me that didn't count. Awesome. Where was this kid about a decade ago when everyone started seriously asking me when I was going to be getting married? If I had known then that the answer was never that maybe I would have a firmer grasp on that fact now.
I realize that this kid, who sadly is my best friend at the moment, just doesn't want to lose me but hearing the words kinda hurts. Don't think for a minute that the words haven't entered my own head a time or two in the last decade or so but to have independent confirmation...well that just sucks!!!
Don't get me wrong, as a general rule I am content with my single life but just once I would love to hear someone who wasn't related to me tell me that they love me. In fact, in my younger years I would try and bargain with God. I would explain to him that I understood that it wasn't my lot in life to be a wife and a mother but if I could just fall in love and have someone love me back I would be content. As I have gotten older I am pretty darn sure that would hurt worse than never experiencing it in the first place. Turns out I want a wedding. I want a family and if that is not to be lot in life as Sophia predicts then I suppose it's high time I start getting over it.
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