Groundhog Day is a comin!

My birthday is exactly one week away. I am pretty sure that by the time you are my age you are not suppose to look forward to your birthday but every year I do. I LOVE my birthday and the reasons are not clear. I have a picture in my head of the perfect birthday and believe it or not that perfection has yet to be achieved. That is mostly my own fault because the expectations are way too high. Every year is a major disappointment but this year I vow to make it different. I am throwing myself a birthday party this year and doing exactly what I want. I am in control of my own destiny! Happy Birthday to me!!!

The weight loss journey has been rough. I have been going through some serious medical issues so the motivation to be healthy has just not been there. It was finally determined that I do not have cancer so it is time to stop feeling sorry for myself and literally get off the sofa. I realized with in the last week that if I did have cancer I had not done anything over the last 32 years to prevent it. Never again! It is time to start realizing that every decision that I make effects my life in the long term. Last week I joined a gym and met with a trainer! Scary!!! We came up with a plan and now I have someone who is in my corner rooting for me. Mike (the trainer) wants me to succeed and most importantly he knows I can. My whole body hurts and I feel like an old lady but I am confident that good things are going to happen.

FYI, I am still unemployed and while it has been nice to be able to do the things that I would like to when I want to I am ready to get back to work. I am in the healthiest emotional state that I have ever been in and I am ready to move forward with my life.